Tamat Program Matrikulasi 16/17

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Finally I have something to talk about for my first post. So, here goes:

It's 20th of June 2017. Harini dapat result PSPM 2. I don't usually get nervous bila ada occassion penting, most of the time last minute baru nervous like 1 hour before? Tapi tah pehal kalini 7 hours before dah berdebar-debar. But then I went to sleep. Then, I woke up for sahur, tidur balik and woke up 30 minutes before 10. And by that time I was dead nervous fuhhh

Mengenangkan result semester 1 yang not bad, I can't help but to put my hope a lil bit higher than usual. I don't usually put a very high expectation, so, when my result exceeds my  expectation,  I am very grateful though kat mata orang beshe-beshe je. But this time I was a tad bit, just a taaad bit disappointed with my result. I mean I could've done better though but I am still grateful. I have no one else to blame but me. But I try to look from a different light, I try to be positive which is janji lepas syarat untuk course yang I nak hihu

Looking back, I can say that I've been through a lot during my 10 months of being a matriculation's student. I lost someone I love and hold dearly, I met new people, I made new friends, I made new crush and a lot at that haha. Life in matriculation is basically consists of never-ending work, constant stress, sleepless night, neglecting your meal since you are too focused in doing your work (i rarely did that), group work yg 70% aku sorang je yang buat because my teammates are full of excuses (but i love my classmates), feeling motivated and energetic just by looking at your crush (it really works!), sleeping during lecture ( i did this a lot during the first semester) and many more. Above all, I had the best memories here.

I contemplated giving up so many times tapi dalam mimpi jela nak buat camni. I think it's normal when you have to juggle with so many things all at once. But what keeps me motivated aside from my crush(es) :p are my family's hope, my friends, my roommates, monthly allowance and most importantly my dreams.

What's New

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Happy New Year everyone! It's 2017 already!

I've started my second semester and is on my fourth week already. Turned 18 few days back because my birthday is in late december. RECEIVED MY SEMSTER 1 RESULT THE DAY AFTER MY BIRTHDAY! And alhamdulillah, all praise be given to Allah I got above 3.0 which I did not expect at all!!! I thought my cgpa would be below 2.5 as I did terribly during my finals so I didn't put high hope on my result but it turned out great. Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah.

So my closest friends in class didn't get what they expect they would get and they got sad to the point where they kept thinking about transferring to pdt and I got sad too haha but everything is fine now because they've decided to stay. Alhamdulillah.

Gotta start working on my dinamika's presentation. Have a good day everyone!

xo

Sum Up My 2016

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What the heck I can't believe we have like 26 days left for 2016!?!! Time flies by waaaaaay to fast and I wonder what have I actually done this year. Seriously what have I done? Apart from pursuing my study what have I been doing this year? I feel like I laze around and sleep and eat more than I should haih

I'm on my semester break now but there's only 1 week left (my sem break is only 3 weeks btw) and I'll start my 2nd (hopefully will be my final) semester inshaAllah next Tuesday which I am sooo ready for it. But, I am soooo not ready to receive my PSPM 1 result which happens to fall the day after my birthday blergh

I did terribly for my final and I have no one to blame but myself :') I won't say I have studied it all because I didn''t but I've tried to give it my all. I wish that I'll stay in PST, I'll pass all my subjects and getting at least 3.0 and above. Well, as for the last wish, I'm not putting much hope but I'll leave it all to Allah SWT and pray and hope for the best.


Anyway, there isn't much happening this year and I don't do much either. I had my SPM break during the first half of the year, continued my study, new roommate, orientation, 1st day of class, new friends, new crush :p, quizzes, tests, assignments, ran out of cash, ate maggi just to save money, stayed up late just to finish the last-minute assignment, procrastinating, fought with my roommate lol, last-minute study for final (kids don't do this), bid farewell with my friends, roommates and wingmates, laze around and that's it.

That's it for this post. Have a good day everyone!

xo

Selamat Hari Raya!

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A lil bit late but SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI and HAPPY EIDULFITRI to all muslims around the world!!

Phew it's finally July and time flies by way too fast. It's already been a month since I entered Kolej Matrikulasi Melaka which explains why I didn't post anything. I've been very busy *not really* with college's stuff and I ran out of my mobile data and the wifi's line there was mashaAllah so fast that I can't even handle the speed which requires a lot of patience =)

KMM is a very nice place despite being extremely hot at times or maybe because I sat under the aircond for so long that I can't handle the heat mehhh but I'm getting used to it so not gonna complain about that! I'm gonna talk about KMM on another post since I want to cram a lil bit of everything in this one post hehe

OHH!!! I finally met Ari last Sunday after a year of not meeting each other. Yes people we are still friends and has gotten even closer than before. And no people, kami tak bergaduh or berpecah or whatever. Eventhough Ari is sooooo jauh at Perak while I'm at Melaka and Putri is here in S2, and we rarely contact each other, our friendship hasn't changed at all and there wasn't any awkward phase or whatever because we rock!!!!

So, Sue is going to study abroad in Beijing, China. She stopped her matriculation last two weeks if I'm not mistaken. I was shock and happy and god knows how I feel when she told me she's flying to Beijing in September. I was like yeay my babe is flying I AM SO HAPPY. I REALLY AM! But my concern is that, what do I do if I miss her?? She's staying there for 5 years and that is a loooong time? And she's under scholarship and I think they only provide tiket pergi balik once or twice a year maybe? Looks like I have to kumpul duit to visit my babe in Beijing. Just thinking about how I'm gonna miss her lots makes me sad already :'(

Uncontrollably Fond has finally started airing yesterday!!! I'm so happy! Can't wait for the 2nd episode tonight but I can watch it only tomorrow online since I don't have astro anymore and HyppTv is boring. But I am sooo excited! I've been waiting for it like a month and a week or something. I'm a big fan of Kim Woobin which is why I'm very excited for this drama. And OST of this drama sounds good too. Only youuuu ooh ooh ohh sing along if you know the lyrics haha! Another drama I'm anticipating for is Lee Jongsuk's W–Two Worlds which is about a girl meeting her favourite webtoon character who come to life. Kim Woobin and Lee Jongsuk, both are bae! Yea I'm a big korean-drama, korean-artist fan!

That's it for this post. I'll try to update more in the future but hehe I'll try. Have a good day everyone!

xo

Halp

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I might be a lil bit late but yes it's finally June. I am still shock of how fast time flies. It feels like we just had our New Year last 2 months? I don't know if it's because I had too much free time that 90% of it has been wasted on useless stuff which makes it feels like time flies by really quick or time really flies so fast.

Anyway, tomorrow is the 6th of June aka the first day of Ramadhan for the year 2016/1437H. Oh wait a second! Today is the 6th of June. I'm sorry, I forgot it's already past midnight. As for my friends who's going to KMNS, goodluck, all the best friends :-) and I'm going to KMM tomorrow. I don't feel really nervous yet but I will tonight. But I really can't wait to enter KMM and start studying again because I've grown bored and tired of mereput gaahhhh. I'm not lying, Im being honest here.

Ok I taktau la I overthinking or what but I've been feeling down lately. I'd like to talk to someone but I don't know why I can't. Being someone who is not expressive is not easy. All you can do about your feelings is to keep bottling it up and you have to always make more space so that you can always bottle up more and more of your feelings sebab you just taktau nak bagitau siapa. nak buat apa dgn apa yg you rasa. I am completely helpless when it comes to my own feelings. I taktau I kena buat apa, I taktau nak buat apa, I taktau nak buat macam mana, I taktau and I taktau. What do I do?

My heart feels very heavy right now, I want to cry but it's like I don't have any tears left for me to cry padahal setiap kali curl eyelash mesti berair mata sbb sakit terkena dekat kulit tu haha I don't even know why I'm feeling this. I want to talk to my best friend about this, I really want to tapi Idk why I tak boleh, I taktau nak ckp macam mana. I pun taktau kenapa and apa yang buat I rasa macam ni it's just my heart feels really heavy and it feels like everything is too much for me to handle, I want to dump it somewhere else but I don't know how. I really need someone to tell me or show me a way to cope up with this because I am helpless.

I don't know what to do :-(