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Assalamualaikum and Hello!

I might be a lil bit late but yes it's finally June. I am still shock of how fast time flies. It feels like we just had our New Year last 2 months? I don't know if it's because I had too much free time that 90% of it has been wasted on useless stuff which makes it feels like time flies by really quick or time really flies so fast.

Anyway, tomorrow is the 6th of June aka the first day of Ramadhan for the year 2016/1437H. Oh wait a second! Today is the 6th of June. I'm sorry, I forgot it's already past midnight. As for my friends who's going to KMNS, goodluck, all the best friends :-) and I'm going to KMM tomorrow. I don't feel really nervous yet but I will tonight. But I really can't wait to enter KMM and start studying again because I've grown bored and tired of mereput gaahhhh. I'm not lying, Im being honest here.

Ok I taktau la I overthinking or what but I've been feeling down lately. I'd like to talk to someone but I don't know why I can't. Being someone who is not expressive is not easy. All you can do about your feelings is to keep bottling it up and you have to always make more space so that you can always bottle up more and more of your feelings sebab you just taktau nak bagitau siapa. nak buat apa dgn apa yg you rasa. I am completely helpless when it comes to my own feelings. I taktau I kena buat apa, I taktau nak buat apa, I taktau nak buat macam mana, I taktau and I taktau. What do I do?

My heart feels very heavy right now, I want to cry but it's like I don't have any tears left for me to cry padahal setiap kali curl eyelash mesti berair mata sbb sakit terkena dekat kulit tu haha I don't even know why I'm feeling this. I want to talk to my best friend about this, I really want to tapi Idk why I tak boleh, I taktau nak ckp macam mana. I pun taktau kenapa and apa yang buat I rasa macam ni it's just my heart feels really heavy and it feels like everything is too much for me to handle, I want to dump it somewhere else but I don't know how. I really need someone to tell me or show me a way to cope up with this because I am helpless.

I don't know what to do :-(